Whatever

Don't you just hate how difficult life can be at times? It's so irritating being the person I am, always bearing the weight of my own problems along with others on my shoulders. I know that this is not how it should be, yet I always do it. Darn my stupid emotions. Sometimes I wonder if it's easier being a guy, someone who thinks logically, with their brains more than their hearts.

I hate how super-sensitive I can be at times constantly wondering what was meant by someone's actions or feeling anger, sadness and dissapointment not only for myself but for other people; doing things for people even if I don't want to even if they don't have my best intentions at heart. By no means am I the type of person who cries at the drop of a dime, I loathe that type of person. I'm the type of person that will do and feel and give for people until I explode, whether it be numbness, crying or anger. Yes it's true, I'm a good judge of character. I know when people don't have my best intentions at heart. Sometimes, I just hope that my kindness will turn that around...but it never does.

I'm going to change myself...No I'm going to change my element the people I choose to have as close companions...no I don't mean I'm going to be mean or write people off, I'm just going to choose carefully the people that I let into my heart. I'm not talking about anyone in particular, I've been thinking this over for a while now. Tommorow I'll get back to happier posts.:)